Monday, July 12, 2010
Chemotherapy as an endurance sport...
Saturday, July 03, 2010
The lighter side of morphine
Sent from my iPad
Thursday, July 01, 2010
Let battle commence...
This is probably the hardest to put together note that I've ever written. It's taken me almost two days just to get from the input - my first meeting with my Oncologist - to sitting down in front of a computer to write. The facts are relatively straightforward.
I have adenocarcinoma, and no point beating around the bush any longer, that means lung cancer. According to Wikipedia this is the form of lung cancer that is more prevalent in non-smokers, and I probably keep quoting Wikipedia that in the forlorn hope that my cancer may not be self inflicted and nothing to do with the twenty years I did smoke. In reality I'll never know and it really doesn't matter. I have the damn thing now and, self inflicted or not, the battle lines are being drawn. I gave up smoking several years ago, I must go back and work out when I quit for posterity's sake but for the sake of argument it's 7 or 8 years ago. I vividly remember some of the circumstances. I'd coughed up some blood and was worried I had early signs of lung cancer. I saw the doctor, who ordered a chest x-ray and three days later I found out I had viral pneumonia. When he told me that I laughed in relief - he probably thought I was mad, but that was the kick start I needed to give up.
We knew that the lung cancer had spread to my bones. That aligned with the pain that I've been having but then came the first of the hammer blows. I have a second secondary cancer. They've found liver cancer. Ruddy marvellous. But hey bring it on. A fights a fight and I'm not expecting cancer to play nice. I'm expecting it to fight mean and nasty. All I can say is that mentally I'm tough and I'm ready for that fight. I've been spoiling for the fight for three weeks now. It also accounts for some of my other symptoms, so I'm glad it's come out and we can start to address those other symptoms with knowledge of where they are coming from.
We move on to talk about treatment. Some immediate radiotherapy targeting key areas of pain - my breastbone and a couple of hot spots on my spine was are causing the referred pain in my ribs. The downside is that the pain might be worse for a couple of days. The expected upside is a release from the pain for awhile. And then, chemotherapy. Four or six sessions (or cycles), 30 days apart.
And finally the prognosis. And here comes the hammer blow I least expected. As expected they want to see how the chemotherapy goes before they can put some accuracy around it, in any shape or form. He allows me to push for a ballpark. I was hoping to hear two to five years. He says it's six to 12 months. I don't swear that much in writing, but FUCK! Even though I know that it comes with a huge number of caveats, that's just not fair.
There's a bit of a gap in my memory from that single point in time to much later that evening. In retrospect it's caused by a combination of a re-run of the shock of when I first got the Big C diagnosis and just complete overload. I think I'm trying to find the positive way to look at this news. It takes a while but finally I find it. And it's this. There's a conversation everyone gets round to eventually. Usually, but not always, when you've had a bit much to drink. And the question is this... If you found out you had 12 months to live, what would you do! What actually happens is that most people never get to live that question out for real. So many things that people want to do get put off for retirement, or when I pay the mortgage off or when the kids leave home or whatever. And they never get round to living out their dreams. When I get through the chemotherapy I will have a fair idea of the time that I have left. I'll have a prognosis drawn from the best information available. I only hope, when the time comes, that I can come up with a plan worthy of having been given the opportunity.
Strangely enough the day after the news I then have one of the best days I've had physically in weeks. I'm able to sleep in my bed, rather than in my recliner. I get several hours of unbroken sleep. I awake in the best shape I've been in for weeks. I'm ready for the fight. Today, I've been for the radiotherapy. True to form I'm now in more pain. Hopefully it will dissipate rapidly because I'd like to be in a position to take a trip at the weekend. Knowing my luck that will go pear shaped too, but we've got time to see if I can recover.
There are a couple of things that need to happen a week in advance of chemotherapy starting and we've made them happen today. As things stand I'm in a position to start next Thursday, the question is can everything that's needed be lined up by then. I have to say I'm thoroughly impressed with my Oncologist. He's just come back from an important international conference on exactly the types of cancer we're dealing with here. Which means he's as up to date with what might be possible as anyone else I could get referred to in the UK. More than that he's a great way about him. In a very short space of time I've given him my trust. It's going to be one of the most important relationships of my life.
Everyone I've spoken with since I've gotten this new news of the third cancer and a ballpark opening prognosis, really hasn't known what to say. Well, that goes for me too. What can anyone say. It's all been pretty devastating stuff. I'm probably slightly ahead of the curve in processing the news and dealing with it; as this has really played out over about three weeks or so for me; from the original point at which I was told in the very broadest of terms that I have cancer. Whatever you now hear or read, for the sake of clarity, the request to give me a call or drop me a note still stands. I'm still the same Chief Happiness Officer I was three weeks ago. And I know you won't know what to say and neither will I, so we can have conversations about iPads and iPhones and technology and Inbox Zero and work in general, life in general, the news and the weather. See, we'll have plenty to talk about!
Monday, June 21, 2010
D-Day came early...
The problem of waiting...
Wednesday, June 16, 2010
Starting my fight against cancer...
(2) The CT scan shows evidence the cancer is widespread
(3) I have a partially collapsed lung I went on from the consultant pretty much immediately to see my GP. It's amazing how cancer opens doors, usually I'd never be able to get an appointment with my GP within 2 hours. My GP was, and is, great. We discussed pain control and I've been moved onto morphine based painkillers. He told me he'd be giving me a sick note for a couple of weeks. I said okay. He said he thought he was going to have to persuade me as apparently he has me down as a bit reluctant to be sick. He said he was ready to fight me off anyway as (a) getting used to the morphine was likely to make the drowsiness I have been suffering from worse and (b) I need to be available for the diagnostic / biopsy process as and when. This side of things is all bit unclear at the moment as well. All linked to finding out what I have and what the prognosis is. I've stayed away from the internet so far in terms of researching cancer. I don't want to scare myself by reading horror stories of what I don't have. When they get to the end of this stage and tell me what I have then I want to know everything. I want to know how to fight this and how to beat it. I know one other thing. One of the ways I'm going to beat this is with happiness. I sometimes go by the alternate job title of "Chief Happiness Officer" at work because I believe that happiness is an important component of success. If I am dying I don't want people around me to be sad for me in an enduring way. It's okay to be a bit sad about the news - hell, you can imagine I was a bit sad about the news, but I don't want to be surrounded by perpetual glumness. I could not have gotten through the last week without the support of my girlfriend. One thing I immediately understood about this all was that all the support is focused on me, and none of it on those close to me and on whom this is going to impact dramatically. I've been on the carer side of this type of announcement, admittedly not a cancer diagnosis though, and this stuff is hard. I tell you all this now because I'm likely to talk about this stuff through my social media output - my blog, twitter, Facebook etc etc and if that's going to bore you, upset you, or just mean that I'm no longer a business development opportunity and therefore no longer a person of interest to you then get on with it an unfriend me or unfollow me now. I won't be offended. Sent from my iPad
Sunday, June 13, 2010
Don't worry lads, we're not crap, it was all a Russian mafia plot!
Thursday, June 03, 2010
Time to review our gun laws?
Wednesday, June 02, 2010
Mindmapping on the iPad
Friday, May 21, 2010
Unplugging from the Matrix
Sunday, May 16, 2010
Ed Miliband
Sent from my iPhone
Tuesday, March 30, 2010
Is it a good day to bury embarrasing news?
Thursday, March 04, 2010
Random thoughts from the #trulondon #NtonTweetUp
We held an informal Midlands based follow up to the #trulondon unconference with a TweetUp in the foyer of the Barcelo Hotel in Daventry. I was joined by @BillBorman with his very lovely wife Fran, @prefio and @whatjobsite. Experienced mild internet trauma when I first arrived – wot... no free internet!!!... tried to sign up with swisscom for 24 hours and they were experiencing problems taking a payment – which to be fair were resolved after about 10 minutes but it was all a bit more painful that this kind of thing ought to be.
The night was peppered with conversation largely related to social media. I don’t think anything we said would contradict my default stance towards the impact of social media on recruitment. So yes, it’s important, and you ignore it at your peril. However while social media helps you connect with people in new and interesting ways it doesn’t change the skill that recruiters must show in connecting and establishing relationships. So I’m not one of those who think it’s the be all and end all. Where social media fails is where it’s used inappropriately to connect with and then essentially spam people. It takes a more rounded approach than just learning how to post jobs to twitter; recruiters need to think more carefully about the balance of content they provide and be more interesting than a stream of job opportunities which are largely inappropriately targeted and just appear as noise. Like anything that’s directed at me that’s noise I’m going to deploy a noise filter to your activity and screen you out.
The “ignore at your peril” comment means that I view social media as a new channel that sits alongside old channels and those who succeed will be those that are maximising opportunities across all channels; and not ignoring social media because it appears to a fad. Social Media is here to stay. I found myself contrasting social media with the arrival of the internet. On my bookshelf I have issue one of .net magazine from December 1994. I remember then when I was going to an internet cafe in New Mills in Derbyshire with magazine in hand to experience the new fangled world wide web. I remember my first 56k modem and “the tones” involved in connecting to the internet from home. I remember evangelising about how the internet would change things and I remember the nay sayers and prophets of doom telling me it would never catch on or never be important. It would be difficult to deny that the internet today isn’t part of the fabric and hasn’t changed the way we consume information, the way we connect with people and the way we shop (just to name a few of the more obvious impacts).
We had an interesting debate about whether the iPad is going to be a hit or a miss. I’m very definitely on the side of it being a hit. I think it’s going to transform the way we consume books and magazines and newspapers partially because of the form factor but also because the iBookshop (or whatever it’s going to be called) is going to do the same thing to print media that iTunes did to music. It’s going to change the way we consume. I think it’s also going to have a massive impact on niche publishers who print and distribute to a small number of localised readers who are now going to get exposure to the long tail of the internet.
Other things we talked about....
The rise of new business models in the recruitment space; Jobgate , Talent Puzzle , Talentdrive , and we talked about referral models (including Prefio) and vacancy clearing models
Sourcing – and we looked at Jigsaw , who are attempting to be the largest database of contact information and talked about using Amazon Mechanical Turk as a possible route to, for example, sourcing email addresses from name / company lists. We also learnt recently from people like Jim Stroud that it’s about the search for people, not the search for CV’s.
Trends in recruitment – we talked about HR doing it for themselves and the rise of RPO activity; all to the detriment of traditional recruitment agencies
We talked about the difference between Facebook use in the UK versus the USA. It’s much more of a business tool in the USA than it is here.
We talked about twitter and about organising lists. Here’s a thought for the way that you organise your lists; have you got columns for Targets, Influencers and Competitors?
We talked a little about presentations and The Back Channel book by Cliff Atkinson – subtitled “How audiences are using Twitter and Social Media and changing presentations forever. Cliff wrote one of my favourite books about presenting called Beyond Bullet Points. We had a very quick look at a new online presenting tool which I think is very cool called Prezi
A bit of advice from Bill on blogging – when you blog watch the impact if you can include “LinkedIn” in the title of your post.
We also briefly talked about ROI for social media and I must follow up with Bill to get the url of the blog post he talked about that nailed some salient points.
So we quite happily chatted until late into the night, fortunately I live in walking distance from the hotel. Another really interesting nights conversation arising from getting involved in #trulondon. Thanks to Bill and also to Alan Whitford of RCEURO fame who pushed me in the right direction in the first place.
A few links...
My blog post on day 1 of #trulondon
My blog post on day 2 of #trulondon
My presentation to the enhanced media conference on slideshare
Friday, February 26, 2010
Posterous and Buzz
The method of getting Posterous to post to Buzz isn't as straightforward at present as the other integrations but the instructions are relatively painless to work through. They are documented here:
This post is in effect my trial run at posting to Buzz via Posterous. Fingers crossed.
Tuesday, February 23, 2010
Older people do not need less sleep - Science, News - The Independent
http://www.independent.co.uk/news/science/older-people-do-not-need-less-sleep-1907383.html
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Saturday, February 20, 2010
Social Media and reach... #emconf2010 #trulondon
I gave a presentation to around 450 delegates at the Enhanced Media conference about 3 weeks ago. Today I noticed the presentation has 518 views on slideshare. Relevancy is difficult to establish but in basic statistical terms more people have seen my slideshow on the net through a social media channel than in person.
The presentation is here...
Friday, February 19, 2010
My notes from Day 2 of #trulondon
Here is my learning from day 2...
NETWORKING
· Got talking with Stephen O’Donnell. He tells me his company put up the first job app for the iPhone – Jobs UK
· He showed me just how many job apps are now out there – he has almost two screens of them on his iPhone – examples Hays, Monster, Total Jobs, Jobsite
· His assertion is that a lot of these apps are “me too’s” – caused by the rush to get there and have presence
EYE CANDY
Take a look at http://www.twitterfountain.com/ - awesome UI but not personally convinced it’s something I’d use on a primary screen – projected on the wall at an office, conference, event or if you’re lucky enough to have three screens maybe...
SOURCING
A few sourcing ideas from the serious practitioners...
· Whois search on GoDaddy.com - http://who.godaddy.com/whoischeck.aspx?isc=goazguk3a&ci=8926
· Whoozy.com – People Search Engine - http://whoozy.com/
· TinEye – Reverse Image Search Engine - http://www.tineye.com/
· Egrabber – captures and processes unstructured data such as cv’s - http://www.egrabber.com/
· pipl.com – people search engine - http://www.pipl.com/
· Tweepz – twitter search engine - http://www.tweepz.com/
· TwitterSheep - http://twittersheep.com/ - produces tag cloud generated from the bios of your “flock” of followers... here is mine...
· Search is only as good as the quality of your keywords, so keyword research is a critical skill in this arena
· As much as one can admire the skills on display is this kind of deep web search & social sourcing a dark art and do recruiters in the UK generally need this depth of help?
· Interesting but unsatisfactory debate about data privacy issues raised by this kind of searching
· Yes, it’s a sourcing tool but it’s a network building and business development tool
· Default view of recruiters on LinkedIn is overwhelmingly negative
· A profile 100% complete will get 4 times the number of views of a profile only 90% complete
· QUOTE – The new API is quite restrictive
· Discussion about profile pictures – company logo’s and cartoons are not acceptable – difficult for LinkedIn to police but if found you will be suspended
· Interesting thought – are you happy with the profile and pictures of your recruiters on LinkedIn
· There is value in using the LinkedIn company profile widget on your website
· Groups are the value add for those not using LinkedIn to look for a job
TWITJOBSEARCH
· Arguably the biggest job board in the world right now... http://www.twitjobsearch.com/
· 650,000 new jobs posted in the last 30 days on Twitter
ROI
· This tracks wasn’t what I thought it was going to be, I was hoping for a discussion on metrics, analysis, tricks and tools
· I wanted more than... “a company should get into New Media because it’s cheap, fast and everyone else is doing it”
· Great idea I picked up on the track... If you want to see how bad our industry still is, set up a tweetdeck column using “recruiter” as a search term
FINAL THOUGHTS
· Two days and two blog posts full of learning points
· I felt it a more comfortable atmosphere in which to network, I usually feel quite uncomfortable at major conferences and pretty much keep to myself
· Day 2 of the unconference organisationally better than Day 1 but in the spirit of complete honesty...
· The location was not ideal – it was quite a palava to leave the main room and go to tracks – this ideally should be much easier to do
· We could have done with slightly more structure around tracks kicking off, what they were going to be about (to start with) and start times could have been more disciplined
· If these two ideas were implemented I think we might have seen more movement between tracks, more side tracks starting up and more challenging of track leaders – then again British reserve says maybe not
To be fair though a fantastic event overall, congratulations to the organisers and a shout out to @billboorman
Bill and I are running a little tweetup in the Midland “to carry on the conversation” as it were ... 3rd March, Barcelo Hotel, Daventry, 7:30pm sign up http://bit.ly/cTlXvZ #NtonTweetUp. There’s only four of us attending so far so lots of room and it’s free.
I have one last thought. If you read this via twitter and went to #trulondon then I’d ask you to tweet the following...
I went to #trulondon and learnt...
It’s for you to fill in the blanks!
Thursday, February 18, 2010
My notes from Day 1 of #trulondon
I had planned to live tweet from #trulondon but in the end I kind of followed the #trulondon hashtag on TweetDeck on my iPhone and spent the time listening and participating in the sessions. To some extent I’m still processing whether the chaos of the unconference style suits me but I did find the day interesting and engaging. Here’s my learning...
VIDEO
· Jim Stroud made some excellent points about how easy it is to get into video and pointed to the excellent case studies of military and schools in the US
· The entry barrier to video is so low these days – just a flip camera and away you go – don’t make it too high tech and it doesn’t need high production values
· Wander round and ask staff... “What do you like about working at xxxxx” – just 30 second clips and edit them together
· Example: Microsoft Canada Development Centre = 9000 views
· You can embed video in LinkedIn via Google presentations (and I think you can now do this via SlideShare as well)
· The jobs don’t have to sexy – the other example was “Food Jobs in Saudi Arabia” - = 1000 views (but it’s about getting to the right audience)
· Good sourcing idea that cropped up in the discussion – look at the people who comment on specialist videos e.g. Microsoft SQL videos on YouTube or post pictures of windfarms on Flickr as potential candidates for appropriate roles
REPUTATION 2.0
· Paul Harrison, Carve Consulting, made excellent points about reputation and the impact of ignoring negative social media comment
· Asda were singled out as a case study in appropriate response to negative social media commentary
· TripAdvisor was pointed to as an example of social rating – are we far away from online rating of recruitment experiences becoming the norm?
SOCIAL MEDIA ROI
· Yes, it’s important
· Yes, it can be measured
· Yes, advice is out there on how to do that
· It’s about tracking both cost AND quality
JOB BOARDS
· Job Boards probably getting tired of hearing about their “imminent death” – and hold my hands up here, I’m one of the culprits
· Worth noting that downward pressure on the cost model has halved the recruitment media market from £1.5B to £750M in about 10 years
· Need to factor in the apathy of job hunters and the fact that candidates will continue to use agencies and it’s agencies that fuel Job Boards
· Behavioural analysis is key – in the final analysis as much as we blather about job boards we will all go where the candidates go
· There’s some evidence of online profiles replacing CV’s but it’s not universal
TECHNOLOGY STREAM
· Make sure you establish clearly what problem(s) you are trying to solve
· QUOTE OF THE DAY: “Implementing an ERP as an ATS takes 18 months just to get you back where you were when you started”
· There’s a tendency to over-specify when thinking about the requirements for an ATS – map your core processes and deliver that
· The Big Three ATS systems named as Taleo, Kenexa and Peopleclick
· SECOND QUOTE OF THE DAY – “The wrong people in the organisation often make the buying decision (i.e. IT people rather than HR / Recruiter people)”
· Approach advice was to focus on use cases rather than huge multi-page requirements documents
· Technology shout outs to: Jobs2Web, Sonar6 and JobVite (who I see for your contact details are offering a free e-book on the “5 secrets to successful social recruiting”)
GEN Y
· QUOTE: “For the first time a younger generation is an authority on something that matters – they “get” the internet better than the older generations
· I felt like an old fuddy duddy defending the honour of my generation!!!
BLOGGING
· Content
· Passion
· ROI
· It’s part of a broader strategy
· Internal Blogging by the company CEO
FINAL THOUGHTS
· Get beyond dipping a toe in the social media world and think seriously about social media strategy
· Make a start by making sure you’re listening
· We have under exploited video as a recruiting tool
· SEO is not as well understood as it should be and we could be better with analysis, metrics and ROI
· Consider ceding control of social media channels to GEN Y employees