Well, it's gotten to Saturday evening already and I have not written a single word for my journal. I guess that says something about the week, what is says to me mainly is that I have been unable to find the energy to be capable of writing anything down. Monday involved a bunch of chores, most importantly getting the car fitted with new tyres, the old ones were beginning to look worn and this isn't the weather to be driving on marginal tread. Had a nice visit from another old Post Office colleague from my later years with Parcelforce and the hand held scanner project. I should try and find some org charts from the time period. Actually that's a great piece of advice if you are starting out... keep the org charts which kind of represent your career and the relationship with key colleagues. Trust me, when you try to have the "do you remember what's his name from accounts" later in life you"ll thank me. And don't rely on what you currently think of as your cast iron memory, it will eventually let you down and you'll be doing the same kind of research I have been doing recently. LinkedIn might eventually take the place of retaining those old org charts or phone lists - assuming you connect with all your colleagues as you move from role to role.
On Wednesday I was supposed to travel to Maidenhead for a do, but I had already figured out on Monday or so that I was not up to the round trip. I could have made the trip in, but would almost immediately have needed to sleep. Thursday and Friday passed me by in a cycle of pain, morphine, fatigue and sleep. It took until late Friday to feel like I had the right balance of medication / timing.
I feel a little unsettled by the fact that the underlying level of morphine I am currently taking is higher than what I have been on previously and worried if I have reached a point where I will always suffer this level of pain and the issue has become managing this level of pain. The problem is I know the level of pain can be controlled but at a level of morphine which won't give me much in terms of awake time. You have to factor into this equation that my body is getting used to the morphine and so it will be taking more morphine now to control an unchanged level of pain. It’s not an easy equation.
I’d like to take a moment here for a shout out to a fellow lung cancer sufferer, Jonathan Piper, who is raising funds for the Roy Castle Lung Cancer Foundation via a climb of Mont Blanc next year. His blog is at... http://everydayamountain.blogspot.com/
I do think Pamela Stephenson should have won Strictly Come Dancing, but it was not to be.
On Wednesday I was supposed to travel to Maidenhead for a do, but I had already figured out on Monday or so that I was not up to the round trip. I could have made the trip in, but would almost immediately have needed to sleep. Thursday and Friday passed me by in a cycle of pain, morphine, fatigue and sleep. It took until late Friday to feel like I had the right balance of medication / timing.
I feel a little unsettled by the fact that the underlying level of morphine I am currently taking is higher than what I have been on previously and worried if I have reached a point where I will always suffer this level of pain and the issue has become managing this level of pain. The problem is I know the level of pain can be controlled but at a level of morphine which won't give me much in terms of awake time. You have to factor into this equation that my body is getting used to the morphine and so it will be taking more morphine now to control an unchanged level of pain. It’s not an easy equation.
I’d like to take a moment here for a shout out to a fellow lung cancer sufferer, Jonathan Piper, who is raising funds for the Roy Castle Lung Cancer Foundation via a climb of Mont Blanc next year. His blog is at... http://everydayamountain.blogspot.com/
I do think Pamela Stephenson should have won Strictly Come Dancing, but it was not to be.
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